My day out with Thomas

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I have been long gone and attempting to make sense of all this and continue with life while he was away. I am just coming to a new normal in my life and he is on his way home! Today though we are on our way to see Thomas the train and my youngest is ecstatic. It is his day to spend with mommy all by himself and I am loving it.

14 years ago today

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I met a young man who would change my life. On this day I became his girlfriend. I wasn’t looking for anyone and was so enthralled in a school project I could care less about talking to him. A few weeks before this he asked for my number and this was after a few years of us living down the hall from one another. We were both teenagers and seeing other people through the years before we finally got together. Something said give him a chance and I did and I’ll never regret it.

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Even going through this situation with him being away can’t deter my love and devotion. We know I was made for him and I can’t wait to spend the rest of our lives together.
I love you baby.

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It’s my birthday

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So it is my birthday. I am the big 3-0. No more twenties and for some reason I feel so much surety about myself and life at this moment. Its not a cockey and self centered feeling but a confidence.

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It’s as if I have a defined road that has been revealed to me and I am aware of the steps I will need to take to get there. It is an amazing feeling and really a blessing to see another day and another year. I am not where I want to be (as of yet) but I know the steps I need to take to get there and I am confident I will arrive there.

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Back to reality

Yesterday was my first day back after a few most needed days off. Most were snow days and a holiday so I really only had one actual day off. Even that had one to two calls from my boss and/or the office. So really I had a half a day off. Don’t get me wrong, but I spent time with my boys shoveling and watching them play in the snow and it made me think. I am grateful to have a job for what it affords me but I have to make a plan to redirect my focus on them. They are the most important things in my life next to God, myself, and their dad.

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Both my boys!

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Boss playing in snow

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Jr making a snow angel

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Jr getting enough of the snow

They look so cute and it was fun watching them play. I know I need to be here for them some way some how. I talked to K about it and he understood completely. It is hard being a mom and trying to work. Add that I have to deal with him being in Prison and the potential medical/biological issues the boys are having and it gets crowded on my plate.
I am excited since this weekend we will go back up to see K. We haven’t been since October and I am so not looking forward to the vending machine circus (their sandwichs cost $3-$5 and all sodas are $2 I believe) in there nor the lovely guards who pick and choose who gets through with questionable clothing or the women who know they shouldn’t wear that top or pants but came wearing it anyway.(Side note:I would love to own one of those machines since I know they rake in dollars for the high prices they charge in the jail.) We do get to talk about the future we want, how I plan on getting there while he is in , and we get to spend time as a family. After missing him and him feeling the same way, I bit the bullet and we are making the trip up. I hope it is a smooth ride and no hitches.

I hope to be able to post soon about the trip. Until then!

Happy Valentine’s Day

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To all the women who are holding their man down, to all the single moms and quasi-single moms, and military wives and everyone else out there that I didn’t specifically state…….

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!

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“You didn’t make me so you can’t break me.”

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I have so many posts in draft form it makes me sick. I have it like this for this site as well my other site, buyingindcarea.com. The crazy thing about it is most are done. I have stop the procrastination and focus! With the boys that can be hard but I will try.

I started this month watching both my budget and my middle and bottom by not eating out. Yesterday as well as today, I ate breakfast and lunch brought from home.

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Yesterday I drank the a lot of water  and hope to continue. So far so good.

 

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I hope the storm that called life can calm down a minute to allow me to handle what I need to handle. Did I mention I am off after Wed? I am so excited and it is much-needed after having 6 years working with no consecutive time off. I am going to brave the elements and I hope to go to a pre-school story time at the library and enjoy my (almost) three-year old.